Postby tak197 » 11 Jul 2010, 20:09
It's hard for me to admit, but when my twin brother came out to me, I was not happy with him, but I was also more than happy to support him. I had to talk to one of the other gay guys on the forum to have him walk me through this. The fact of the matter is, I'm Christian, my parents are Christian, I live at home with them, and when he came out to me, he was living in West Virginia.
Oh, yeah, and I'm gay too. (Also very closeted as you will read, and coming out in any form is a huuuuuge deal.)
So the reason I wasn't happy with him is that he got to be all gay and proud while I went through all of college as part of some Christian group or another and having to live in fear of someone finding out. (Then about 6 weeks later, he had to move back home, for stupid university reasons.)
Am I self-loathing? No. Am I a hypocrite? Shit no. Am I one truely fucked up individual? Yes, but for so many other reasons that make this pale in comparison.
In the end, I don't want to be seen as insane or weird, but I want to be seen as other things. Hell, coming out to my parents as a GEEK was hard enough, but it took a bunch of people to help me with that.
This is gonna be a weird request, but will you all be my support net for this? PWEEEEASE??? *puppydog eyes*