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Postby Kapol » 26 May 2014, 00:45

I spent all day being busy. I helped my friend move stuff to his new house. Then I spent the next 9 hours rearranging my room without any help. Which included cleaning and pulling all the heavy stuff out to get a better design. On the plus side though, I can get a good computer desk and actually have a decent work space for my computer. The room is also much better laid out now.
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Postby Lord Chrusher » 26 May 2014, 01:24

It is my last week in Melbourne.

I am sad to be leaving the wonderful city I have called home for the last four and a quarter years and all my friends here. I am wound up about packing up and moving. I am excited to be going on holiday and to be going back to Canada for the summer after being away for a year and a half. I am worried about money and finding a job. I am annoyed about how long it is taking for my thesis to be examined.
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Postby TheRocket » 26 May 2014, 15:10

My babies are going to their forever home tomorrow. :( :)
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby Bebop Man » 27 May 2014, 18:22

I had a long, long day today. It started with me writing a review behind schedule at 4 in the morning, followed by 5 hours of sleep and a conference with my boss who went on to chew me for 2 hours straight in a meeting I didn't know for the life of me how to end (reviews unrelated btw). I realized I hate the guy and constantly had to fight the childish impulse to roll my eyes at every piece of BS he kept throwing in. By the end of the meeting he'd badmouthed everything from my uni to my professionalism and I get the feeling he did it all just to get a reaction out of me and have a good reason to keep going and going. After that I had to journey across town to collect a check I'd been owed for over 2 months now, and then spend about an hour at the bank cashing the measly sum of money.

On the plus side, I won't deny I'm happy I finally collected. My cousin dropped in for lunch and we played some Borderlands, that's always nice. I then went to a 3D press screening of Edge of Tomorrow and fucking loved the movie, maybe because I came in with low expectations, maybe because I was looking for an afternoon respite after the fiasco, maybe because it's just a fun movie.
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby Merrymaker_Mortalis » 28 May 2014, 06:08

Combining UKIP with Mudkip meme is both one of the greatest and most horrifying things I've seen.

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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby empath » 30 May 2014, 13:08

It's over.

Went to work, got everything ready for lunch (or tried to, was falling behind and there were still a couple of things to cook when I left), left at noon, took a cab downtown to the courthouse and went to the appropriate office, met my store manager and the company lawyer (also waiting), and after a while the prosecutor spoke with us, and then the other two went in to the prosecutor's office to speak.

That was a while...a fair number of people came by and dropped off papers, at one point the secretary took something in to them...

...and I'm twisting a tissue I've got (because of the cold), and next thing I know I've almost garrotted my finger, so I stopped that...and then I waited some more...

And then they came out, and all seemed pretty good - manager was smiling and cheerful...

and then I went in to speak with the prosecutor (with legal counsel present on the part of the company lawyer).

That didnt' take nearly as long - maybe they decided everything previously and just wannted to double-check with the other witness, or whatever...

The prosecutor mentioned he'd read my statement and checked that everything said was accurate, and then he asked:

"Did you, at any time, feel you were in danger or threatened?"

Oh THANK GOD! "NO. She was too far away from me to pose any kind of threat, and it quickly became clear that she didn't WANT to cause any kind of harm, but was merely warning me away, which I was perfectly fine with."

and then a couple more questions, one of which that twigged with me: "Did you notice anyone else in the vicinity around you when the whole event took place?" To this, I had to really think - I was rather focussed on the three of us when things happened, and I couldn't remember if there was anyone else even in the parking lot - the whole affair didn't last very long right to the point where we all came back into the store.

As it turns out, neither of the other two 'participants' saw anyone else, and security camera footage didn't have perfect coverage, but it didn't show anyone going in or out until we came back.

With that he came to the conclusion that there wasn't any point in going forward with either of the charges - the 'assault' never actually happened, since no threat was instilled in the supposed victim, and as for 'causing a public disturbance', "there wasn't anyone else present to disturb".

...I swear I wanted to hug him. :)

The company lawyer seemed satisfied with everything, so then the prosecutor got up, escorted us out to the secretary's office, then went to another door to speak with our 'defendant' and her attorney. I heard her make some happy noises after a bit. :)

Then he poked his head out to ask if either of us minded speaking with her. We were both fine with that, and then she rushes out and hugs us, thanking us, and babbling a little.

...and then she started to apologize, and I put my foot down.

"No. Stop that - you have nothing to apologize for; you did NOTHING wrong. Heck, the Law has made that explicitly clear at this point. You did the RIGHT thing in that situation - there was no way to tell that I wouldn't be a danger to you if you let me get closer. For all you knew, I could have had a bottle of chloroform in one pocket and some zip ties in the other. And I want you to remember that - despite the fact that I'm safe to be around, and many people are, STILL SOME MEN ARE NOT SAFE. I don't want to inadvertently lull you into a false sense of security. Stay cautious out there. I'm not particularly happy that you HAVE to be on your guard, but it still beats the alternative."

To which the prosecutor cut in "Though, maybe next time, just start with a verbal warning - something like 'Thank you, but I'd rather you didn't help, I'm not comfortable around strangers' and so on. Then if the man doesn't back off, warn that you'll defend yourself and you can bring out the knife."

The lawyers spoke about some stuff - I think they were going to get the arrest record wiped or expunged...at that point I was giving more self-defense advice, like keep your distance if he doesn't back off, etc.

At one point she asked if maybe she should get a gun. No one seemed terribly happy about that idea; I suggested against it - in Canada there's a lot of regulations and hoops to jump through and training and instruction to be taken before you can purchase, keep and carry a handgun. And also something some people don't realize is the care and maintenance is a factor "When was the last time you took apart your pocket knife, cleaned all the individual pieces, re-oiled them, and then reassembled it? You need to do that regularly with a gun to be sure that it won't jam or misfire. Also, the knife has more multi-purpose utility than just self-defense - you'd have a hard time cutting open a shipping box with a handgun."

In the end, we left on pretty happy terms, and the store manager offered me a lift back to work. I finished off a couple more hours - ended up helping carry out a HUGE party tray order for the university (convocation celebrations) and everyone in the deli was happy for how things turned out.


So, why is this in Mixed Emotion and not WIN, then?

This whole event has given me a lot to dwell on...

The turned out as positively as I could hope it to...and yet this has still be a rather nerve-wracking twoo weeks for me. And that's just ME, essentailly a bystander to the real mess. It made me physically sick, and I didn't have the experience of being arrested, processed, etc. etc.

Again, I *HATE* that this is a society where anyone HAS to go around always on the defensive, that has to be paranoid, but...there's a REASON that these precautions are taken and they ARE necessary.

...and worse, I really have no realistic expectation that it's EVER going to get any better. I see no practical way of eliminating the root problem that is causing all this (I DO have some rather violent fantasies about eliminating some of them, but again, they're not really practical or even viable on a global scale).

I've said this before, and I restate it here (with so paraphrasing): I'm forty-two years old, and I've been paying attention to the world around me for a fair chunck of that time. And I am NOT seeing a 'better world'; I'm not seeing a safer, healthier or happier world. Shit has gone down in the past month alone that would be ABSOLUTELY INCONCIEVABLE in the Eighties.

I'm sorry if this is being a buzzkill, but how the heck do you think *I* feel?

This is a world where someone raised to be helpful to others - to be the sort of person who offers help and assistance freely for no better reason than just to help another - now is confronted with a situation CAUSED by his philanthropy. Trying to be selfless ENDS UP HARMING OTHERS MORE THAN JUST BEING A SELFISH, ISOLATED...I don't know how to finish that.

And not even ACTUALLY DOING ANYTHING TO HELP, it was JUST THE OFFER OF ASSISTANCE that set the whole kafka story into play.

So now I have to fight decades of ingrained programming, and essentially STOP BEING WHO I AM if I truly want to do no harm. (hell, look at my name)

And then there's the reminder of what a truly alien and incomprehensible nightmare the justice system in modern society has become.

And as I said previously, a person I hold in respect has been tarnished by all this, somewhat. I have doubts about him.

So yeah, it's over (at least for me), and it kinda turned out okay, but...
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby Darkobra » 30 May 2014, 14:05

I would never stop trying to do good in the world and I don't think you will either. Right up to giving your statement and after, that's exactly what you tried to do. You're shook up now but when it all passes, you'd realise that your good made things right and she has learned how to better defend herself.
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Postby 2stepz » 30 May 2014, 14:18

Standing in line at the register at the grocery store today, a little girl was in front of me with her mom. She looked at me and said "hi," so I said hello. She told me her name, and I gave her mine. I told her she had a pretty dress... and we talked about her dress for the next few minutes. She looked up at me and said "I'm three... and I am smart!" Yes, yes you are, you cute little thing...

On one hand, I'm glad she thought I looked safe and sociable enough to talk to (although the extroverted ones at that age will talk to ANYONE. My niece was like that.)

On the other hand... my mind kept wondering if I would ever have a little girl like that, or boy... damn biological clock is ticking so hard I'm getting bruises.
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby TheRocket » 02 Jun 2014, 17:44

Wat? What on earth did I miss, empath?
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby empath » 02 Jun 2014, 18:05

Big shit, hon.

As I said, it ended about as well as I could've hoped, but it still leaves me kinda demoralized (although part of the lingering funk might also be the effing cold I've been fighting for almost two weeks).
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Postby Bebop Man » 03 Jun 2014, 05:42

Still feels like a win to me, empath. I'm glad it's over for you.
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Postby Jamfalcon » 03 Jun 2014, 14:27

Some people are just not prompt with responses, I wouldn't be too worried yet. Especially if it's something that'll take more than a sentence to reply to.
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Postby Elomin Sha » 03 Jun 2014, 14:32

I have a worry complex that I've inherited from my grandfather.
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Postby Jamfalcon » 03 Jun 2014, 14:43

Oh, that runs in my family too. I was a bundle of nerves for days in a similar situation a while back, and the best advice I can give is try to find a way to not focus on it all the time. Good time to start a new game or project, or just get some housework done.
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Postby Metcarfre » 03 Jun 2014, 14:43

empath wrote:At one point she asked if maybe she should get a gun. No one seemed terribly happy about that idea; I suggested against it - in Canada there's a lot of regulations and hoops to jump through and training and instruction to be taken before you can purchase, keep and carry a handgun.


The number of non-police officers that have been given concealed carry permits non-wilderness carry of handguns in the last ten years in Canada is literally less than 100; for all intents and purposes, carrying a firearm for self-defense is illegal in this country.

Getting a license to own and possess isn't that hard, though, I got mine earlier this year.
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby Merrymaker_Mortalis » 03 Jun 2014, 14:44

Hello, I have sleep anxiety.
I welcome the warm embrace of falling asleep, but I also fear slipping out of consciousness. It's a battle of mentality, and the only way I can be not stressed when I try to sleep is to forget I even have an anxiety about it.

I've had this since I was thirteen and I had a small bout of depressing brought on from the side affects of cough medicine.

So every night before I sleep is a night of mixed emotion. I often forget about it if I have something more to be thinking about.
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Postby Elomin Sha » 03 Jun 2014, 14:50

Jamfalcon wrote:Oh, that runs in my family too. I was a bundle of nerves for days in a similar situation a while back, and the best advice I can give is try to find a way to not focus on it all the time. Good time to start a new game or project, or just get some housework done.


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Postby Jamfalcon » 03 Jun 2014, 15:06

Well, I can't imagine a better distraction! :P
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Postby viscomica » 03 Jun 2014, 20:07

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Kind of made me think of me :/ Sad state of affairs!
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Postby empath » 04 Jun 2014, 04:55

Wait, do you mean this?

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over here?

If so, firstly, I find much of what you share with us VERY interesting; everyone has SOME fraction of 'mundane' stuff they end up having to mention or discuss, so be it - I look upon things I'm not interested in as 'just something to prepare me for the good stuff' :D



Secondly, I think you confused 'url' and 'img' bbcode tags - url is for links, and img is for embedded images; Randall puts what you need for either at the bottom of the page. (which I think is awesomely generous of him to do)


Oh and don't feel bad, I've come to be able to type out assorted bbcodes from sheer muscle memory (I haven't got the COLOR codes committed to memory yet, but I'm working on it!) and I still typo things all the time :^)
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby Merrymaker_Mortalis » 04 Jun 2014, 05:03

If I ever feel like I am sharing mundane and boring stuff with people, I look at Twitter or reflect upon conversations with people and remember all the shit people told me that I didn't care about but I sat and listened/read because I am not an arse hole. And I then realise, if anyone criticises me for being boring, then they are being one huge stinking pile of hypocrisy.

Embrace the mundane. Find joys where no one can be bothered to find them. They are your own to keep.

I find the "look for people's hypocrisy" is a great way of finding some self confidence in your hobbies or interests.

After Misogyny, I'm pretty sure Hypocrisy is the next thing the world is infested with.
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Postby viscomica » 04 Jun 2014, 17:12

Thanks guys! :D It was kind of shocking because I thought two of those three things mentioned in the comic strip were ... well, precisely me! I do like to recap my dreams and I'm a light weight when it comes to alcohol... But I do know how to speak french :P and english and spanish... That's gotta count for something! I'll try and play the "look for people's hypocrisy" more :D It definitely fills every xmas celebration room every year, am I right or am I right?
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Re: The Mixed Emotion Thread

Postby Merrymaker_Mortalis » 05 Jun 2014, 08:49

Next year for college I am eligible for a maximum grant off the Welsh Assembly for studying as I am over 25 with no income and categorically independant.
Yay.

But, I want to spend that money on a decent computer rig (as I mentioned on the forums a few months ago). I wonder how I can justify spending a huge portion of that money on a new PC to my parents.

I know my parents do not dictate what I do with my life, but, I do live under their roof (rent free for the time being), so I do need to respect them as people and will have to endure living with them if I piss them off.

If I was like all "FU MOM... (Mum because I am British, but MOM is like, stereotypical so appropriate in this hypothetical context) ... I DO WAT I WANT YO" it would be unreasonable. By trying to explain I am independant through a very immature way, it'd not going to work.

These are legitimate reasons to get a Desktop (not gaming or procastination related):

1) My keyboard will be at desk height and not on top of a laptop. I had an accident with acrylic ink (like ink, but make of molten plastic. Well, liquid) and poured some into my laptop's keyboard by mistake. Thankfully it only ruined my Keyboard and not the laptop. Though it make the WASD keys stop working, which made it impossible to really play anything. So now I have a USB keyboard plugged it, sitting on top where my old keyboard was. Meaning wrist strain and heating up of laptop due to heat not able to escape easily.

2) Bigger monitor. I won't have to squint at a small monitor. Less eye strain.

3) Better processing power meaning I can do more elaborate computer graphical projects. A source of work/commission with digital artwork.

4) Bigger capacity and insides. Meaning I could have a part-time job as a self-employed Web Content producer.

Any other ideas to how I can justify this expenditure to my parents of my 25 year old self and to myself would be welcomed.

(This probably should have been in the Advice thread. But I have all these mixed feels)

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