Postby Fezzul » 12 Oct 2011, 15:57
So, I asked a girl out today. Turns out she has a boyfriend.
That sucks, since I've been working up the confidence to do this for about a week, and I took two extra classes today, just to get the chance to see her after school and I'm really bad at this crap in general.
And the worst part is I can't be angry with her. She was nice about it, un-patronizing, no "Really, you? Hah, that's a laugh." If she was nasty I could plot revenge (I say revenge... I mean get drunk with a friend and think up a few overambitious ideas for revenge before getting bored and going to bed), something nice and concrete and easy to focus on. Instead she's still the nice girl who I kinda liked a fair bit. Which means it's up to me to deal with my own emotional crap. Which I'm bad at...
So I did the usual things, I said "Well, if you're ever single...", then I offered to kill her boyfriend for her... Y'know, the usual. It got left on amicable terms, and I'll see her again in the next couple of days.
And is it just me or does it ever occur to anyone else that when you like someone and they're already taken, you imagine the person their with to be the lowest example of human being? I do. Maybe that's the deep-seated egotism that I developed to combat my deep-seated shyness and lack of self-confidence. Anyway the point is, I know for a fact that I am a more intelligent person, a better person, a nicer person, a more talented person and a more unique and rare individual than most of the people who walk this Earth (egotism, just go with it, in real-life I'm probably less impressive). Not to mention I'm taller than about 90% of the planet (apart from Bill). And yet she has the gall and sheer stupidity to choose someone else over me? It doesn't make sense... no sir, that she could date such a low, undeserving scumbag such as... whoever this guy is who I've never met. Anyway, the point is, he's probably lovely... otherwise she wouldn't be dating him, duh. But I hate him and his innumerable flaws. The bastard. And I bet he smells.
So I'm frustrated, time for Pepsi and Feed Dump.
However, tomorrow's a new day. And there's more than one pretty girl in the world...
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