The Mixed Emotion Thread
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I don't have to wait 6 days to get medicine/cream for Scabies... Just until my docs appointment in 6.5 hours.
The way I'm getting this, is through my brother, who's going to pay by card over the phone from the other side of Aus... Which means it's actually my mother paying.
My instinct says no, accepting help from her is wrong, I have no place for her in my life. But, the itching and pain is unbearable. I'm literally scratching a dozen holes in myself a day.
I can sort of justify it because I fully intend to send my brother money when I get paid on Friday whether he likes it or not, after all, a Lannister always pays his debts (And screw it, my family sucks so I'm a Lannister now.) but it still feels wrong...
And on yet another hand I got a laugh from one of my friends telling me now is the time I should go give my grandmother a big hug XD
And in completely unrelated news to my health screwing up in yet another new way. Dad was here today. Didn't interact with him in any way, but my grandmother left a note asking if I was doing anything to find somewhere else to live, first interaction with her in awhile was me leaving a return note "I'll be out by the end of July, don't ever interact with me again." and judging by the occasional word here and there, she's not getting a court order now, but my dad was busy having a yelling match with her about kicking my ass and throwing me out... Couldn't care less about him anymore, he can try that if he wants, wont go well for anyone. I'm more not sure how to feel about my grandmother, apparently reasonable enough to not just be like "Yeah sure, he's in his room, go nuts." and maybe that was an indication there's no court order coming, not really sure. I'm still sticking to my expect and plan for the worst at all times plan, it's generally safer than assuming anything better, but I just don't know. Like, how exactly should I be feeling about all this, cause right now the Scabies is driving me insane, but all the family stuff, the trying to find a place to live, the most I can muster is "Eh, more of the usual." because I just don't know what I should be feeling or thinking about it anymore.
The way I'm getting this, is through my brother, who's going to pay by card over the phone from the other side of Aus... Which means it's actually my mother paying.
My instinct says no, accepting help from her is wrong, I have no place for her in my life. But, the itching and pain is unbearable. I'm literally scratching a dozen holes in myself a day.
I can sort of justify it because I fully intend to send my brother money when I get paid on Friday whether he likes it or not, after all, a Lannister always pays his debts (And screw it, my family sucks so I'm a Lannister now.) but it still feels wrong...
And on yet another hand I got a laugh from one of my friends telling me now is the time I should go give my grandmother a big hug XD
And in completely unrelated news to my health screwing up in yet another new way. Dad was here today. Didn't interact with him in any way, but my grandmother left a note asking if I was doing anything to find somewhere else to live, first interaction with her in awhile was me leaving a return note "I'll be out by the end of July, don't ever interact with me again." and judging by the occasional word here and there, she's not getting a court order now, but my dad was busy having a yelling match with her about kicking my ass and throwing me out... Couldn't care less about him anymore, he can try that if he wants, wont go well for anyone. I'm more not sure how to feel about my grandmother, apparently reasonable enough to not just be like "Yeah sure, he's in his room, go nuts." and maybe that was an indication there's no court order coming, not really sure. I'm still sticking to my expect and plan for the worst at all times plan, it's generally safer than assuming anything better, but I just don't know. Like, how exactly should I be feeling about all this, cause right now the Scabies is driving me insane, but all the family stuff, the trying to find a place to live, the most I can muster is "Eh, more of the usual." because I just don't know what I should be feeling or thinking about it anymore.
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A bit of a weird one for me.
Over the past couple of weeks the thought has popped into my mind of 'I want to be father'. Not sure why.
Over the past couple of weeks the thought has popped into my mind of 'I want to be father'. Not sure why.
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Possibly. Parental instincts kicking in.
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Letting my mother back into my life, no clue if this is a good or bad decision. This time, I'm laying down the basic ground rules that all my friends have known and respect.
In good news, I have scabies cream and anti-histamines to help with the itching. Seems like my grandmother didn't go get her court order, I'm pretty sure it was meant to be at 9am and there's no way she got there and back by 9:30 since it's a half hour DRIVE away.
In good news, I have scabies cream and anti-histamines to help with the itching. Seems like my grandmother didn't go get her court order, I'm pretty sure it was meant to be at 9am and there's no way she got there and back by 9:30 since it's a half hour DRIVE away.
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What, me worry?
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It's always annoying when someone says "you look stressed" when I wasn't stressed.
I then go from content -> stressed and angry and content.
I then go from content -> stressed and angry and content.
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Well, in 10hours 15minutes I have my appointment with housing services.
On the one hand, they have to help me right? I mean, if they don't come the end of the month I'm basically fucked. On the other, what if they don't, what if they do but it's yet another temporary solution.
I'm both so eager, and completely terrified. I'm on edge so much that I went out to turn my sausages that are cooking midway through typing this, and freaked out thinking the light from the stove was fire... So of course in my genius, I'm watching more X-Files at 3am. Gyah.
On the one hand, they have to help me right? I mean, if they don't come the end of the month I'm basically fucked. On the other, what if they don't, what if they do but it's yet another temporary solution.
I'm both so eager, and completely terrified. I'm on edge so much that I went out to turn my sausages that are cooking midway through typing this, and freaked out thinking the light from the stove was fire... So of course in my genius, I'm watching more X-Files at 3am. Gyah.
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I have a job interview lined up for friday morning.
On the plus side - YAY! Gainful employment sighted on the horizon!
On the down side...it's still a stage-fright inducing interview; I always stress about this sort of thing...
On the plus side - YAY! Gainful employment sighted on the horizon!
On the down side...it's still a stage-fright inducing interview; I always stress about this sort of thing...
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*hugs Empath* I know what you mean, it's scary. I know this might sound cheesy, but when I go to job interviews I try to remember two things.
1. Don't be afraid to smile a lot, doesn't have to be fullblown, just a small one.
2. Be kind. (Because I find it easy to seem approachable and easy going then)
Good luck!
1. Don't be afraid to smile a lot, doesn't have to be fullblown, just a small one.
2. Be kind. (Because I find it easy to seem approachable and easy going then)
Good luck!
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Today it's overcast (and had rained yesterday) and humid and almost no wind; it's 24c and feels like 31c (75f -> 88f)
For my wife, from hotter climes, it's the first day she's felt comfortable wearing shorts/tanktop and sandals...
...for me, it was stifling (too humid to evaporate sweat).
For my wife, from hotter climes, it's the first day she's felt comfortable wearing shorts/tanktop and sandals...
...for me, it was stifling (too humid to evaporate sweat).
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Applied to be an apprentice Manager for Aldi near me. The idea of the job appeals. And the fact I could work my way to manage Aldis in Catalonia.
Just slightly overwhelmed by the concept of it.
I can lead. It's just one side of my personality. The personality that does the job seeking stuff is the I'm Scared personality.
Just slightly overwhelmed by the concept of it.
I can lead. It's just one side of my personality. The personality that does the job seeking stuff is the I'm Scared personality.
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So I got a playset of promo Hall of Triumph that I ordered from Ebay today. I ordered it over a year ago.
I'm not even mad. I'm just impressed they actually got it to me. Also, annoyed that I forgot about it.
I'm not even mad. I'm just impressed they actually got it to me. Also, annoyed that I forgot about it.
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every time I visit this site I get mixed emotions
where's Moggy? where's Bill???
It's strange -- this site -- nothing has changed but everything is different
where's Moggy? where's Bill???
It's strange -- this site -- nothing has changed but everything is different
i dont know what's happening anymore
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Don't worry Lavos. Different doesn't have to be bad. We all miss Bill.
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Family reunion. Cousin is 9 months prego... due in the next two weeks. I am happy for her... give her daughter a younger sister and gives another precious baby to cuddle during the holidays this year.
It's miserably hot, and she's struggling. I ask her if there's anything I can do for her. "Not unless you can carry this baby for me for a while."
Hits me like a punch in the gut. You don't know how quickly I would jump on that if it were only possible, but seeing as I'll never carry one... damn that hurt. And no... nobody noticed the tears in my eyes after that. Suck it up and move on.
It's miserably hot, and she's struggling. I ask her if there's anything I can do for her. "Not unless you can carry this baby for me for a while."
Hits me like a punch in the gut. You don't know how quickly I would jump on that if it were only possible, but seeing as I'll never carry one... damn that hurt. And no... nobody noticed the tears in my eyes after that. Suck it up and move on.
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I drew a quick picture of my friend from a photograph.
I like it too much to discard.
But if someone found it, it would be kinda awkward to explain.
I like it too much to discard.
But if someone found it, it would be kinda awkward to explain.
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I'll remember that if they ever find it.
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So I want to relay something that happened on Saturday...
I had just finished streaming, because Jer had a surprise stream. I was watching that and happened to look out the window. I'm glad I did because what I saw was a little girl (maybe about 1.5 years old) in a swimsuit just running around unsupervised in the middle of the street. Then, I heard a car horn before I could even react to the situation, and was like "Oh dear Lord! She's going to get run over!" So I just ran out into the street to scoop her up and get her onto the sidewalk. After a little bit of neighbor discussion (and shock), it was determined that she got away from a pool party 3 blocks down. So, she got back to where she belonged. But it was scary that such a situation even ended up existing.
I had just finished streaming, because Jer had a surprise stream. I was watching that and happened to look out the window. I'm glad I did because what I saw was a little girl (maybe about 1.5 years old) in a swimsuit just running around unsupervised in the middle of the street. Then, I heard a car horn before I could even react to the situation, and was like "Oh dear Lord! She's going to get run over!" So I just ran out into the street to scoop her up and get her onto the sidewalk. After a little bit of neighbor discussion (and shock), it was determined that she got away from a pool party 3 blocks down. So, she got back to where she belonged. But it was scary that such a situation even ended up existing.
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So I called in sick to work this morning. Then I took my boys and little brother to the aquarium (my older son's birthday celebration, with a large family dinner tonight).
I plan to not call in sick to work for the rest of the summer unless I absolutely have to. I hate doing it, even when I am legitimately sick. Doing it when I'm not feels worse. But my son is so happy. Ahhh! The conflicting emotions!
I plan to not call in sick to work for the rest of the summer unless I absolutely have to. I hate doing it, even when I am legitimately sick. Doing it when I'm not feels worse. But my son is so happy. Ahhh! The conflicting emotions!
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I had that when I used to do that in College. I would attend almost 100%, but I felt like sometimes I needed a day off. Especially when it would have been a silly day (revision for things I already knew). Still didn't stop it not feel right.
Feel blessed that you have these feelings. You feel love. You feel commitment. They're positive feelings. I am also sure your sons will look back on this day with much fondness.
Feel blessed that you have these feelings. You feel love. You feel commitment. They're positive feelings. I am also sure your sons will look back on this day with much fondness.
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Lil sister moved out, finally have the apartment for myself. Feels a bit lonely sometimes though. Also not splitting everything in halves, including bills.
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