The Confession Topic: Get It Off Your Chest!

[2stepz]

Yesterday was a very odd day for me. Most of the time I feel like I'm not pulling my own weight and making progress through research... especially with all of the health battles I've had this year. I generally feel like I'm unwanted and undeserving. However, yesterday I had conversations with the ladies who run the department office where I was told that I'm not allowed to leave, I can graduate, but not leave. They like me too much. Also, a professor in the department commented that I need to graduate so she can win the chili cook-off again.

I'm starting to feel like I'm wanted because I can cook...

Why can't that apply in other areas of my life???

TLDR: Sometimes it's nice to feel wanted, even if it is for the wrong reason.

[My pseudonym is Ix]

There is no such thing as a wrong reason, only a different perspective/an incorrect blood alcohol content.

[Laurnil]

I don't know how to play D&D (or any similar game thereof) or Magic the Gathering (or any similar game thereof). I wish someone would teach me. However, I'm a hands on learner and I am really super fucking broke.

Any advice?

[Jamfalcon]

For D&D, check out Roll20. It's an online tabletop, and I've seen a lot of people running one time "learn to play" session for various systems. I haven't been to one myself, but I assume they'd walk you through the basics of making a character and then run a short adventure. There's no cost for the site, and if you're playing either D&D 3.5 or Pathfinder (two very similar systems) you can find many of the rules online. (Here for 3.5, and here for Pathfinder.) Even if you learn in a hands on way, you'll want those for reference.

As for Magic, the Duels of the Planeswalkers games are probably a good way to learn, and are only $10. They don't allow deckbuilding to any great extent, but they'll get you comfortable enough with the game, and give you a good idea of whether or not you're willing to invest more time and money in it.

[JustAName]

My breasts visually remind me of the ears on the pigs from Spirited Away.

I wish I didn't sometimes feel like vomiting when I look at myself in the mirror partially or fully unclothed.

[Merrymaker_Mortalis]

I still sleep with cuddly toys.

[Elomin Sha]

I am still Elomin Sha.

[My pseudonym is Ix]

I still sleep with cuddly toys.

I do at home. I still struggle with the idea my bear isn't alive

[Danzama]

I have just found out I have a bigger penis than Daniel Radcliffe. Not sure how I'm supposed to take that.

[Fezzul]

I'm falling in love with someone I shouldn't fall in love with. Again.

[King Kool]

This confession contains spoilers for Beyond: Two Souls.

SPOILERS

I just saw pictures of Ellen Page's character's full frontal nude showering scene. I wasn't the least bit aroused. I'm not sure if it's because it's creepy uncanny valley territory or if it's because the scene just reeks of being completely unnecessary. I haven't played the game, so maybe this is paid off, but it just feels like they're doing this to put a naked woman in the game. It either has a good reason to be in the game or it doesn't. If it's a good reason, then it's probably not in an erotic context. And if it's not a good reason, this is probably exploitation. Maybe it IS in an erotic context, but... boy, does everything about that just feel unnecessary.

If it were the real Ellen Page... I think I'd react the same way. So I guess they've made it realistic enough... I dunno.

SPOILERS OVER

[Deedles]

I'm listening to Christmas songs already...

[King Kool]

So long as it's this one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXQViqx6GMY

[Lord Hosk]

I hate most Christmas music, but I have purchased 16 versions of "the little drummer boy" because it has the message of what Christmas is supposed to be about.

The greatest gift you can give isnt gold or silver, the greatest gift fit for a king is to give of yourself.

[My pseudonym is Ix]

Nope, sorry. This is the best Christmas song.

Or possibly this, for completely different reasons.

[GaProgMan]

You're all wrong. The only acceptable Christmas song is this one.

[The Jester]

For shame, all of you. No mention of this?

[Darkobra]

It's up to me to show you what Christmas is REALLY about.

[Fezzul]

I get really angry when people get opportunities that I felt I deserve. Even if I'm still getting lots of great opportunities myself, and even if some of them really deserve it.

It just annoys me when they get these things without having to work for it. There's a thing going on at the moment where actors in the Academy company are having this great new show, written by a high-flying, professional Broadway writer, just handed to them because they happen to be in the Academy Company. This could lead to real big work and money for these guys. And they just had it handed to them. Some of the actors in the company really deserve it, they're good actors and hard workers, but some of them are complete hacks, and they don't deserve a golden egg like this just handed to them. And it also brings back my bitterness at not being invited in to the Academy Company. I'm definitely better than several of the male actors that got in, and I would have favorable odds against a lot of the others too. I didn't get in for type reasons, nothing to do with my ability, because I'm tall and I look a bit funny. That's why. And yet these guys are now held up to some towering standard, and handed spectacular opportunity, just because they fit the mold of the kind of people they're looking for? That's not fair.

And that's very petty of me, and I don't like that side of myself, it makes me feel bad, particularly when some of these people are friends. Good friends who've stuck with me through thick and thick. Friends who probably deserve to have something nice like this thrown their way. And it's not like I haven't had some stuff thrown to me. I like to think I work for every single accolade I have got, and, for the most part, I do. But I can't deny that sometimes people helped me out in getting them. They recommended me, or they told me about the audition, or whatever.

I really should live and let live, and just be happy for them, and they can be happy for me.

[Elomin Sha]

This has to be vague. There is something I want to say but there is a conflict for doing so.

[Merrymaker_Mortalis]

I still sleep with cuddly toys.

I do at home. I still struggle with the idea my bear isn't alive

I have a Teddy Bear I had for over a decade (I was given when I had tonsillitis) and a random bear.

Down the side of my bed (they keep falling there and I am tired of constantly 'scooping' them out with my bear-paws) is a Beanie Baby Octopus. A Zero P Imp. A Pterodactyl, a tiny white bear, a small thing I cannot remember and now feel bad for that.
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Once I am not the only human being who'd sleep in my bed I will stash them away. In the time being, I am enjoying snuggling with bits of fake fur.

[Fezzul]

Merrymaker, I have a stuffed-toy hare who has been with me all my life. I will keep him until I have a child to give him to, and even then I might not want to part with him.

He is the one thing in my life that has never changed, and I like that. Well, he has changed slightly, actually. He's gotten smaller as I've grown up.

[Darkobra]

I'm allergic to dogs so I got a stuffed pug. I call him Ralphie. Because Ralph sounds like a dog barking.

[Fezzul]

I haven't been able to cry for a while. Not that I spend my days crying to myself, but I have had a lot of reason to cry recently, and have wanted to, but haven't been able to.

It hit home during the feels section of Desert Bus. I felt like I was going to cry, but couldn't. Not sure what's going on with me...

[JustAName]

You're the third person I know who's that way. All guys. The others have been that way about four years?