The thread of hope.
Posted: 25 Dec 2011, 05:07
So, I just realised something, we have a thread of lols, and a thread of win and for venting yet, we don't have a thread for hope!
I'm not talking about "Oh, there's new signs they can cure cancer!" hope, i'm talking the small things that happen occasionally, that make you think maybe someone, something, or some time isn't going to be so bad. Let me start off.
A few days ago my mother dropped my little brother off, and left a bag and card for me, the bag contained about $5 worth of cheapo (Read, the imperfect) lolly bags, and the card was basically a gigantic way of trying to guilt me for not talking to her anymore and saying how she forgives me. She has years of horrible times to TRY and make up for, yet come christmas, she can afford to buy herself a $60,000 car, yet can't even spend the traditional $20 on a random mens shavers pack.
Today, I went to my Dads place for christmas lunch, I've always felt kinda awkward around his "new" family, on account of not knowing most of them, yet he knows everyone like he's known them for years. (Well, to be fair, he has known them for years.)
Yet, appart from my grandparents constantly snapping at eachother about whatever they could, it was a good day.
Then came the presents, I've grown to not expect anything, but I was anxious to see what my little brother got. He got about $400 worth of stuff today, from a father who only see's him a few days a year. Then, out of nowhere I got called up, for a whole pile of gifts, my fathers family, most of which I speak to maybe once a year, provided they show up to christmas lunch/dinner had gotten me a bunch of cards and your standard "I don't know you very well, here's some deoderant/chocolates" gifts. And my father had given me $100 and some very expensive mens deoderant (Think the stuff that costs about $80, still not as much as most womens perfume, but alot more expensive than your typical deoderant.)
This was from a man, whom both him and his wife work full time to live comfortably, but are unable to afford big things like new cars or TV's, and who has nothing at all to make up for.
So in conclusion, I've been sitting here for the last few hours, since we got home thinking, maybe my mothers entire family despises me, and maybe my grandmother is incapable of having a civil conversation with me, but the people who I never expected anything from, my father and Linda, whom don't owe me anything, Linda's Daughters, their boyfriends/husbands, brothers in law etc, they managed to give me this year, more than i've gotten on christmas in the last 9 years combined. Maybe I should start looking into this whole family concept, before today i'd always written it off as something society just guilted people into...
So share your storys of hope people, I know you all have them!
I'm not talking about "Oh, there's new signs they can cure cancer!" hope, i'm talking the small things that happen occasionally, that make you think maybe someone, something, or some time isn't going to be so bad. Let me start off.
A few days ago my mother dropped my little brother off, and left a bag and card for me, the bag contained about $5 worth of cheapo (Read, the imperfect) lolly bags, and the card was basically a gigantic way of trying to guilt me for not talking to her anymore and saying how she forgives me. She has years of horrible times to TRY and make up for, yet come christmas, she can afford to buy herself a $60,000 car, yet can't even spend the traditional $20 on a random mens shavers pack.
Today, I went to my Dads place for christmas lunch, I've always felt kinda awkward around his "new" family, on account of not knowing most of them, yet he knows everyone like he's known them for years. (Well, to be fair, he has known them for years.)
Yet, appart from my grandparents constantly snapping at eachother about whatever they could, it was a good day.
Then came the presents, I've grown to not expect anything, but I was anxious to see what my little brother got. He got about $400 worth of stuff today, from a father who only see's him a few days a year. Then, out of nowhere I got called up, for a whole pile of gifts, my fathers family, most of which I speak to maybe once a year, provided they show up to christmas lunch/dinner had gotten me a bunch of cards and your standard "I don't know you very well, here's some deoderant/chocolates" gifts. And my father had given me $100 and some very expensive mens deoderant (Think the stuff that costs about $80, still not as much as most womens perfume, but alot more expensive than your typical deoderant.)
This was from a man, whom both him and his wife work full time to live comfortably, but are unable to afford big things like new cars or TV's, and who has nothing at all to make up for.
So in conclusion, I've been sitting here for the last few hours, since we got home thinking, maybe my mothers entire family despises me, and maybe my grandmother is incapable of having a civil conversation with me, but the people who I never expected anything from, my father and Linda, whom don't owe me anything, Linda's Daughters, their boyfriends/husbands, brothers in law etc, they managed to give me this year, more than i've gotten on christmas in the last 9 years combined. Maybe I should start looking into this whole family concept, before today i'd always written it off as something society just guilted people into...
So share your storys of hope people, I know you all have them!