The depressing depression thread

Drop by and talk about anything you want. This is where all cheese-related discussions should go
User avatar
AdmiralMemo
Posts: 7340
Joined: 27 Nov 2011, 18:29
First Video: Unskippable: Eternal Sonata
Location: Baltimore, Maryland, USA
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby AdmiralMemo » 15 Feb 2016, 23:40

That feeling when you reach out to someone you remember from several years ago, just to be friendly, and they don't remember you. :-(
Graham wrote:The point is: Nyeh nyeh nyeh. I'm an old man.
LRRcast wrote:Paul: That does not answer that question at all.
James: Who cares about that question? That's a good answer.

Image
User avatar
Tinasaur
Posts: 259
Joined: 04 Nov 2009, 13:25
First Video: Forget About It
Location: Sweden

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Tinasaur » 16 Feb 2016, 00:04

I'm so frustrated, I can't keep myself under control. I try to stay healthy, I try to study, I try keeping myself occupied and not succumb to the anxiety.. I try and I try, and I fail and I'm so tired of failing.
User avatar
Deedles
Posts: 4043
Joined: 29 Nov 2010, 13:19
First Video: Man Cooking
Location: A shoebox on Kashyyyk.
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Deedles » 16 Feb 2016, 03:35

Darkobra wrote:I've gone from the strongest person my friends know to being broken. It's finally got too much for me. I think I need help. And I have work tomorrow so I have to pretend to be fine.

This is the one place I have that I can actually vent this. The only ones that actually know me here I trust. God knows some people will use it as gossip and a weapon against me. That'd end up with me being in an explosive rage but it'd end up with me in a worse off position too.

I can't do this anymore. Not alone. And it's not a feeling I'm used to.


*hugs tight* You still are one of the strongest people I know, and I know that you can get through this!
Hurp-De-Durp!
DennyR
Posts: 75
Joined: 19 Jan 2016, 14:23
First Video: Installation Anxiety

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby DennyR » 16 Feb 2016, 04:32

Joy, I'm being sent back to a doctor to have my meds reviewed again. Been feeling really terrible the last month or so, and so my psychologist is saying this should be looked at. Mostly torn between feeling really alone, or just completely indifferent to everything.

Really, really didn't help having Valentine's this week where my family were nearly rubbing their plans in my face and forcibly reminding me I'm alone.
User avatar
Dutch guy
Posts: 5198
Joined: 11 Feb 2008, 17:12
First Video: History of Halo
Location: Southern Dutch Colonies

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Dutch guy » 16 Feb 2016, 10:43

Darkobra wrote:I've gone from the strongest person my friends know to being broken. It's finally got too much for me. I think I need help. And I have work tomorrow so I have to pretend to be fine.

This is the one place I have that I can actually vent this. The only ones that actually know me here I trust. God knows some people will use it as gossip and a weapon against me. That'd end up with me being in an explosive rage but it'd end up with me in a worse off position too.

I can't do this anymore. Not alone. And it's not a feeling I'm used to.


Things can overwhelm anyone, no matter how strong a person is. Everyone has a breaking point. The fact you have found yours does not mean you are not a strong person. It just means your human. Good luck with everything, I hope you can find someone who can support you and take some of the weight off your shoulders.
THE DUTCH!! THE DUTCH AGAIN!!!!!
Elomin Sha wrote:Dutch guy is the King of the Dutch.
User avatar
Darkobra
Posts: 5343
Joined: 27 Jul 2007, 14:49
First Video: ISC: Goat Penis
Location: Scotland

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Darkobra » 16 Feb 2016, 11:39

Deedles wrote:
Darkobra wrote:I've gone from the strongest person my friends know to being broken. It's finally got too much for me. I think I need help. And I have work tomorrow so I have to pretend to be fine.

This is the one place I have that I can actually vent this. The only ones that actually know me here I trust. God knows some people will use it as gossip and a weapon against me. That'd end up with me being in an explosive rage but it'd end up with me in a worse off position too.

I can't do this anymore. Not alone. And it's not a feeling I'm used to.


*hugs tight* You still are one of the strongest people I know, and I know that you can get through this!


*hugs* I have friends at work. They all heard about it. Someone told everyone discreetly. And a guy said I'm still a strong bastard to take a blow like that, get into work and get the job done.

I don't feel it. I am actually ripped apart. But he said as long as I'm still standing, I'm still fighting.

And I have you. You helped me last night. The friends I work with helped me today. And even now, shivering with anger, you're able to keep me restrained.

Gotta find me a new woman. With big boobs and a beard as glorious as mine.
Lyinginbedmon wrote:You are clearly some form of incorporeal undead.
Like a vampire.
But with knives.
User avatar
Phi
Posts: 248
Joined: 23 Sep 2012, 10:16
First Video: Impersonal Information
Location: Earth
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Phi » 17 Feb 2016, 02:29

So the past week / two weeks have not been great, to say the least. I graduated and am working from home now, but I find that I do not want to do anything, least of all work. I don't want to check or answer emails, or talk to anyone about not important things, like everything at my work. I want to stay in bed and do nothing, or meditate. I feel very stuck and depressed.
User avatar
Deedles
Posts: 4043
Joined: 29 Nov 2010, 13:19
First Video: Man Cooking
Location: A shoebox on Kashyyyk.
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Deedles » 17 Feb 2016, 07:29

Darkobra wrote:
Deedles wrote:
Darkobra wrote:I've gone from the strongest person my friends know to being broken. It's finally got too much for me. I think I need help. And I have work tomorrow so I have to pretend to be fine.

This is the one place I have that I can actually vent this. The only ones that actually know me here I trust. God knows some people will use it as gossip and a weapon against me. That'd end up with me being in an explosive rage but it'd end up with me in a worse off position too.

I can't do this anymore. Not alone. And it's not a feeling I'm used to.


*hugs tight* You still are one of the strongest people I know, and I know that you can get through this!


*hugs* I have friends at work. They all heard about it. Someone told everyone discreetly. And a guy said I'm still a strong bastard to take a blow like that, get into work and get the job done.

I don't feel it. I am actually ripped apart. But he said as long as I'm still standing, I'm still fighting.

And I have you. You helped me last night. The friends I work with helped me today. And even now, shivering with anger, you're able to keep me restrained.

Gotta find me a new woman. With big boobs and a beard as glorious as mine.

You can never go wrong with a big boob, big beard combo!


Phi wrote:So the past week / two weeks have not been great, to say the least. I graduated and am working from home now, but I find that I do not want to do anything, least of all work. I don't want to check or answer emails, or talk to anyone about not important things, like everything at my work. I want to stay in bed and do nothing, or meditate. I feel very stuck and depressed.

Maybe find a reason to go outside? Any reason, can be as simple as just going for a walk, or to have a coffee/tea/soda in a cafe you like. Just get out of the house for a bit. Working from home can be dangerous for people with depression because you still end up feeling shut in and isolated.
Hurp-De-Durp!
User avatar
Danielle Pepin
Posts: 822
Joined: 15 Oct 2009, 04:23

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Danielle Pepin » 18 Feb 2016, 04:07

DennyR wrote:Joy, I'm being sent back to a doctor to have my meds reviewed again. Been feeling really terrible the last month or so, and so my psychologist is saying this should be looked at. Mostly torn between feeling really alone, or just completely indifferent to everything.

Really, really didn't help having Valentine's this week where my family were nearly rubbing their plans in my face and forcibly reminding me I'm alone.


Perhaps Desert Bus community chat irc would help you feel less alone? The address to get there is irc.dbcommunity.org #desertbus (ports 6697 SSL or 6667). I use it when I can't see friends in person.

I felt the same at the last family get together. Someone looked at the 3 babies at the table and said something to suggest I should "get on that" despite having had a very recent breakup and they were the one I'd told first about it. Regardless of any thoughts of children being in my future it still stings like lemon on an open wound.

Tinasaur wrote:I'm so frustrated, I can't keep myself under control. I try to stay healthy, I try to study, I try keeping myself occupied and not succumb to the anxiety.. I try and I try, and I fail and I'm so tired of failing.


Are you able to exercise, like just doing some on the spot cardio marching/side-steps to get your heart up for a while and move the muscles? The other day I was surprised by how much more at ease I felt after only about 20-30 mins of doing that and some stretches.

AdmiralMemo wrote:That feeling when you reach out to someone you remember from several years ago, just to be friendly, and they don't remember you. :-(


Well, I know that wasn't me, cause I recognize your name in chat all the time. Did it seem like they may have been facetious or sarcastic without the face to accompany it in typing or they had to ask where they knew you from? I've had that before on Steam before cause they didn't know my username as well as my irl name.

Also I'm glad that sound at the door was just a cat too. I missed that happening in chat.

Elomin Sha wrote:30 and 0


You're over 30 now? Welcome to the club of survivors of 3 decades! ...if that's what the context was.
Image Image
Click here, receive tweet: http://twitter.com/DaniellePepinAI
User avatar
Danielle Pepin
Posts: 822
Joined: 15 Oct 2009, 04:23

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Danielle Pepin » 18 Feb 2016, 04:23

Darkobra, I approve of your taste in bearded women.

Phi, you may have tried already but exercise may help somewhat if you're able to get that far out of bed... Hope you feel better soon.
Image Image
Click here, receive tweet: http://twitter.com/DaniellePepinAI
User avatar
Elomin Sha
Posts: 15773
Joined: 22 Feb 2008, 05:14
First Video: Max Effect
Location: Woodford Green, England
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Elomin Sha » 18 Feb 2016, 04:55

My birthday is in July and I'll be 31. 30 and 0 was a jab at myself for 30 years and 0 Valentines. I think I'm going to turn it into a record, first I need to live to over 1000.
The most unique, nicest, and confusing individual you will get to know. Don't be stupid around me, that's my job.
https://displate.com/elominsha/galleries
If you need art, I take commissions, PM me.
User avatar
AdmiralMemo
Posts: 7340
Joined: 27 Nov 2011, 18:29
First Video: Unskippable: Eternal Sonata
Location: Baltimore, Maryland, USA
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby AdmiralMemo » 18 Feb 2016, 05:08

Danielle Pepin wrote:
AdmiralMemo wrote:That feeling when you reach out to someone you remember from several years ago, just to be friendly, and they don't remember you. :-(
Well, I know that wasn't me, cause I recognize your name in chat all the time. Did it seem like they may have been facetious or sarcastic without the face to accompany it in typing or they had to ask where they knew you from? I've had that before on Steam before cause they didn't know my username as well as my irl name.
No, it was a guy I went to college with. We only spent like 4 months together, but we bonded over Star Trek and Half Life during that entire time. Granted, that was 16 years ago, but he didn't even remember the name of his roommate (another fan of both) when I brought him up. :-(
Graham wrote:The point is: Nyeh nyeh nyeh. I'm an old man.
LRRcast wrote:Paul: That does not answer that question at all.
James: Who cares about that question? That's a good answer.

Image
User avatar
Dutch guy
Posts: 5198
Joined: 11 Feb 2008, 17:12
First Video: History of Halo
Location: Southern Dutch Colonies

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Dutch guy » 18 Feb 2016, 07:51

AdmiralMemo wrote:
Danielle Pepin wrote:
AdmiralMemo wrote:That feeling when you reach out to someone you remember from several years ago, just to be friendly, and they don't remember you. :-(
Well, I know that wasn't me, cause I recognize your name in chat all the time. Did it seem like they may have been facetious or sarcastic without the face to accompany it in typing or they had to ask where they knew you from? I've had that before on Steam before cause they didn't know my username as well as my irl name.
No, it was a guy I went to college with. We only spent like 4 months together, but we bonded over Star Trek and Half Life during that entire time. Granted, that was 16 years ago, but he didn't even remember the name of his roommate (another fan of both) when I brought him up. :-(


Don't take it personally Memo. Some people are just bad at remembering people. Period.

I couldn't name half the people in my senior year of high school, even though I had quite decent contact with a lot of them. Putting faces to a name? Not a chance.
THE DUTCH!! THE DUTCH AGAIN!!!!!
Elomin Sha wrote:Dutch guy is the King of the Dutch.
User avatar
Danielle Pepin
Posts: 822
Joined: 15 Oct 2009, 04:23

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Danielle Pepin » 18 Feb 2016, 14:27

AdmiralMemo and Dutch Guy: ....and yet everyone remembers the jingle to Double-Mint gum from like 20 years ago not even being a consumer of it or even liking the sound of the jingle. It's not the things we want to remember the most for some reason.

Elomin Sha: Valentine's is just another day and most people who have partners stopped worrying before they found them of how long it was taking them to get there or about the illusion of days being deadlines in the name of capitalism. There is no real pressure. Society is a dick for creating this much stress.
Image Image
Click here, receive tweet: http://twitter.com/DaniellePepinAI
User avatar
Danielle Pepin
Posts: 822
Joined: 15 Oct 2009, 04:23

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Danielle Pepin » 20 Feb 2016, 19:02

Alex is on Crossing the Streams now.
Image Image
Click here, receive tweet: http://twitter.com/DaniellePepinAI
User avatar
AdmiralMemo
Posts: 7340
Joined: 27 Nov 2011, 18:29
First Video: Unskippable: Eternal Sonata
Location: Baltimore, Maryland, USA
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby AdmiralMemo » 22 Feb 2016, 11:03

I just had two teeth extracted... This is going to suck for a while...

And the worst pain is from the bill... :-(
Graham wrote:The point is: Nyeh nyeh nyeh. I'm an old man.
LRRcast wrote:Paul: That does not answer that question at all.
James: Who cares about that question? That's a good answer.

Image
User avatar
Phi
Posts: 248
Joined: 23 Sep 2012, 10:16
First Video: Impersonal Information
Location: Earth
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Phi » 25 Feb 2016, 10:15

A couple of days ago was my birthday, and I turned 24. My family remembered, and some of my friends did too, but most did not. Should I feel good that not all forgot, or bad that most people I know and consider friends did not remember? I ended up not seeing anyone the entire birthday and feeling sad. Or is this part of adulthood?
CamelKnackRambleHort
Posts: 127
Joined: 03 Apr 2015, 21:24
First Video: Cursing

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby CamelKnackRambleHort » 25 Feb 2016, 10:39

Phi wrote:A couple of days ago was my birthday, and I turned 24. My family remembered, and some of my friends did too, but most did not. Should I feel good that not all forgot, or bad that most people I know and consider friends did not remember? I ended up not seeing anyone the entire birthday and feeling sad. Or is this part of adulthood?


My birthday was yesterday. I literally forgot that until I just read your post. Checking my phone, my sister was the only person who wished me a happy birthday. I forgot and so did my wife.

It is kind of just part of being an adult, in my experience. If you want to make it a bigger deal you can, it's always a good excuse to have friends over or similar, but the default seems to be no one really caring any more.
She/her please
User avatar
Danielle Pepin
Posts: 822
Joined: 15 Oct 2009, 04:23

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Danielle Pepin » 25 Feb 2016, 17:41

Yeah, birthdays get less and less of a deal aside from maybe milestones with 0s in them or quarter centuries. I'd think it more depressing if I throw myself a party and few to no people show up. I share birthday events sometimes with people that have a birthday in the same month as me if they are nearby.
Image Image
Click here, receive tweet: http://twitter.com/DaniellePepinAI
User avatar
Phi
Posts: 248
Joined: 23 Sep 2012, 10:16
First Video: Impersonal Information
Location: Earth
Contact:

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Phi » 25 Feb 2016, 23:01

Well, that is depressing..
User avatar
empath
Posts: 13530
Joined: 28 Nov 2007, 17:20
First Video: How to Talk Like a Pirate
Location: back in the arse end of nowhere

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby empath » 26 Feb 2016, 02:34

In the Things You Never Want To Hear category...

I'm in the cab, and I hear one of my colleagues key in with "Well, you'd better take my number down {he's not available to take fares} - I'll be at the Janeway {Children's Hospital}; she just passed."

Image
Image
Image
Image
CamelKnackRambleHort
Posts: 127
Joined: 03 Apr 2015, 21:24
First Video: Cursing

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby CamelKnackRambleHort » 26 Feb 2016, 10:10

Phi wrote:Well, that is depressing..


Like I said, you can decide to make a big deal out of your birthday, it just doesn't happen automatically any more.
She/her please
User avatar
Merrymaker_Mortalis
Posts: 7223
Joined: 24 Feb 2010, 19:19
First Video: ENN's First Episode on Escapist
Location: Wales

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Merrymaker_Mortalis » 26 Feb 2016, 13:04

My volunteer shift ended sooner than normal. I walked to the bus stop to find out the time for the next bus. Before arriving there, I saw the bus pull out. I called it down, it rejected me.

I sprinted up the hill to catch it. I missed narrowly. I may have caught it, but probably got struck by a car.

Next bus was in an hour's time and would take me 45 minutes on top of that to get home.

So I decided to walk the 4 miles home. Took me 1 hour 15 minutes.

I am angry. I want revenge. I am upset. I have tired. I am exhausted. I feel ill because I ran hard in the cold air.
Estoy no bien.

Fuck the buses in this area.

It's a walk I never do out of joyous choice. It is always done when I am unhappy. There's a bridge I must walk across, which is known for people to jump off.
User avatar
theknightofiron
Posts: 57
Joined: 13 Mar 2014, 06:48
First Video: phailhaus episode 1
Location: Perth, Australia

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby theknightofiron » 27 Feb 2016, 06:36

I am increasingly worried that i am broken.
whether this is because of my aspergers or residual brain damage from the car accident a few years ago i am less sure.
not sure why i wrote this
just felt like the right thing to do
GNU - Bill Watt
User avatar
Dutch guy
Posts: 5198
Joined: 11 Feb 2008, 17:12
First Video: History of Halo
Location: Southern Dutch Colonies

Re: The depressing depression thread

Postby Dutch guy » 27 Feb 2016, 10:31

I am trapped by my own damn mind. I feel like I'm spiralling the drain. I just can't get myself to do ANYTHING. Even doing the damn dishes is too much of a chore. I come home from work feeling drained. Muck around on the internet a bit, sleep, go to work. Rinse repeat... And I just can't break the chain. I just can't get myself to do ANYTHING.... And to top it all off I caught myself having those thoughts again: "Why do I bother being alive anyway". I haven't been this low in almost a decade.


Addendum:
Don't worry about me, I'm not going to actually do anything. I'm not that far gone and I will be finding help before it ever gets to that point. I know I should seek a psychotherapist/psychologist now, but I just can't deal with it right now. Too many other things demanding my attention.
THE DUTCH!! THE DUTCH AGAIN!!!!!
Elomin Sha wrote:Dutch guy is the King of the Dutch.

Return to “General Discussion”



Who is online

Users browsing this forum: No registered users and 7 guests